The Biggest Secret of College

I disappeared for a little bit.

That's not exactly a good look for a new blogger, but sometimes when you're as sporadic a person as I am , these things can seem unavoidable. I was (maybe I still am) stuck in this weird spot, where even though I'm exactly where I've always dreamed I would be, something is missing.

I'm not satisfied with....well, to be completely honest I can't even put my finger on the thing that I'm not satisfied with.

I'm stuck in a middle ground and I became stagnant. I'm only doing what I need to do to get by, and nothing more. I can count on one hand the amount of times I've left the dorm to adventure on my own.

Here's the sneaky thing nobody tells you about your Freshman year of college,

it's lonely.

You're in a new place with, new people, and none of your old vices. It can be hard and disconcerting at times to be having all these wonderful new experiences and feel like there's no one there to care or to listen, or even to go through these experiences with.

I'm still trying to figure all of this out myself, so I cannot offer you an grandiose solution. What I can give to you is my individual promise that I will try to push past it.

♡I promise not to find myself sitting in on my 6th consecutive episode of whatever I'm binge watching on Netflix at the moment.

♡I promise to make an attempt to get out of my comfort zone and leave the dorm, just to explore, just to get outside.

♡But most of all, I promise not to stop moving forward.

It's so easy to fall into a pattern of comfort and avoid any potential for new experiences. But that's a dangerous trap to fall in. No matter what you have to promise yourself that you will constantly be trying to find ways to grow into your best you. 

To anyone that has found themselves in this situation, keep moving forward.

until next time,

x kirst

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High School Advice || Things I Wish I Knew

High School SUCKED.

Okay, okay so it wasn't terrible... but there are definitely some things I wish I knew that may have improved my experience, if only marginally.

My last senior assignment was to write a letter to incoming Freshman with my advice, below is the condensed version.

This tips are nothing revolutionary, but these are the things I wish I knew earlier.

1.) Fill Your Time Up

At risk of sounding like a hover mom, people use their time best when it’s a limited resource. 

 Join clubs, do sports, get a job, find a hobby, it doesn’t really matter what you’re doing as long as you’re doing something. 

One of my biggest regrets from high school is how much time I had to burn.

I spent a lot of afternoons sitting bored in my room when I could have been making new friends, exploring new interests, or helping out the community.  

I know it can feel intimidating to walk into a club for the first time, or to try out for a sport you’ve never played before, why not use high school as a time to try out as many new things as possible.  

Explore as many outlets as you need to until you find your passion, and once you find what makes you happy don’t let it go.

2.) Take Care of Yourself

Friends may come and go, but you have to live with yourself forever, so do what makes you happy and worry about the rest later. 

 Try to spend as little time as possible worrying about gaining the approval of others, wear whatever clothes you want to wear, raise your hand in class if you have something you want to say, don’t be afraid to participate in gym even if you may not be the most athletic person out there.  If it makes you happy, there’s not a reason in the world not to be doing it.  

Happiness is a lot like those oxygen masks on airplanes, you have to help yourself before you help others.  Once you find the happiness within yourself, that happiness will radiate and project itself on to others.  

 Live your life for you and you’ll find yourself surrounded with like minded people.

3.) Be Present

It’s really easy to get lost in everything that is going on in your life and just end up passively moving through your day, without ever being truly aware of what’s going on all around you.  Try to live your life aware of every breath you breathe, of every step you take, of every interaction you have.  

I truly believe that there is beauty in every moment, and if you pay close enough attention, you can always find something to smile about. 

 One of my favorite quotes is,

 “No matter the amount of negativity you are presented with, 5 minutes from now could be the best moment of your life.” 

 Even if you can’t find positive in that instant, keep your heart open to all the good surrounding you and something positive will come your way, you just have to believe it will.

until next time.

x, kirst

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College || Time To Be A Big Kid, Even If I'm Not Ready

look ma, I made it.

I successfully graduated high school and now I'm headed off to the college of my dreams in just 2 short days from now (crazy right!?)

{peace out high school}

{if this isn't the face of a done bitch, i don't know what is}

{I got by with a little help from my friends}

Where am I going you ask?

I'll be attending the Fashion Institute of Technology in New York City.

Right now my major is Fashion Business Management, but who knows what the future holds. I'm so excited to start the next chapter of my life, and I can't think of a more perfect place for me to be.

Am I sad to leave home? ...Of course! I'm gonna miss my family like crazy (especially my favorite little furry friends).

But this is what's right for me, and it's going to be amazing.

As I sit here thinking of the one million last minute things I have to do (did I actually pack a phone charger?), I realize that for the first time in a long time, I'm sure I made the right decision.

These next four years are going to contain some of the most memorable moments of my life, and I can't wait to discover them one by one.

until next time.

x, kirst

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